The feeling of mine

Hello everyone and welcome to my blog.

I'm new in this blog. I get trying to learn it as well.

Well,I'm called Pear.I originally live in Bangkok,Thailand,now I'm on exchange student in Belgium. I usually speak Thai and I also can speak English and Dutch basically. I have two dreams in my whole life , the 1st one is for myself "I want to marry." and the 2nd one is for my family "We'll  travel all together all over the world." I like Thai food most and I'm very fond of chocolate. I'm a regular girl,nothing's special. I love to learn and study. I spend my time to watch movies (mostly in the cinema) with my family and also my hostfamily (mostly it's my host brother). I can't live alone without music. I go on computer everyday,at least 3 hours a day. Sometime I think I'm addicted. I'm going to study about accountancy in the university in Thailand. I have friends,they are really meant to me as my family,they are really meant THE WORLD to me. This is getting boring,right ? I tell about myself too much :,P so,I'm gonna stop it.

Next Saturday is Valentine's day. Everybody is preparing stuffs for his or her own special one. But I'm gonna celebrate my single (actually our single) with my friends on that day. I've got nobody. Everyone wonders that why I don't have a bf. I'm gonna tell you "I don't know either" haha. I'm not a serious one. So,I just let that day go...waiting for next year maybe everything's going to change. Then,I remember...

The last two years or three years. I got a red rose and fererro rocher from some boy in my school. I didn't know what he was thinking about me. Maybe,he'd liked me but he never showed that. At that time,I liked him too but I didn't know why we didn't act like we were couple. Then,he had been changed. He turned to like a boy. He got a boy as his date. OMG! What happened? I haven't talked to him for a long time but we still have been in the same school. Who know what happened ? Please tell me ! I really want to know it.

Before I came here ( Belgium ),I think I liked some guy whom I know as my old school friend. In the beginning,I started to find his cell phone's number and just called him for the 1st time. He seemed like he was very attracting by me. Because my cell phone sucked in this moment,we really couldn't talk. He eventually called me by my home phone's number. I was very afraid of my parents,they would know that we had been talking to each other. But in the other hand,I was so happy that he was interested in me. We had been talking for a week,then he was appeared. No call and no responsible. I talked to him when I knew that I could go to Belgium in 2008,so it was almost a year that he didn't contact me at all. I remembered ,I was a bit crazy why he did like this to me. My friends helped,then I got better. I deleted his number on my cell phone and I almost forgot eveything about him. On August 2008,I prepared myself for leaving Thailand to Belgium. A week before my flight,I had a strength number missed call. Even though I thought I used to it but I still couldn't know whose it was. I got more those missed call after 2-3 days and I realised that it was his cell phone's number. The one whom I really liked ,the one who appeared for a year. At that moment,I thought I could be very strong but those missed call made me relapse. He started trying to contact me. Talked to me like we were really couple. He said smooth words. But I really didn't know what I really needed. I coudn't take that anymore. All I wanted before I came here was talk to him every night. We had been talked for 4 days and then I got to go. Afterwards,we haven't talked. I don't see him on msn. But I saw his msn's message. It said "One left me die,another one give me breath." What does that phrase mean ? I got to know eventually. By the way,I think I still like him but something about him makes me really can't be with him. I don't know. Time will tell me everything. We will know what we really need. I'm looking for the coming of that day. Then,I will finally be happy again. With love

;,)♥Pear